ive been trying to step out of my comfort zone a bit and do things i dont usually do. I am too inhibited. Think i may do some drinking tonight to relax and then just show up online and see what happens to see if i can loosen up even further. maybe its a bad idea

I know its a little early for resolutions but I have started to think. Work is slow right now and i know the first week of the year is so busy, my mind wanders

I normally enjoy the solitude of an almost empty office and the slow work days and use a lot of my vacation early in the year during the nice days.

next yr i think i have to plan better vacation wise and save some days for this time of yr

I act on impulse in much of my life and maybe i need to plan many things better, vacations and other things

got approval to take some comp time and leave the office early today :) Wine store here I come!, nice dinner , nice wine, maybe a nice movie :)

that and some other recent events and thoughts that have been swirling in my head have made me smile

sometimes i just think too much , gotta experience things

work has been so slow recently. no excitement at all. think i need something fun and exciting to do for work and some fun. i am in a rut

Just wanted to see if i could do it . I took a whole 36 or so hr break from being online at all. I needed to see if i had addicition issues lol. I was jonesing for several sites but was interesting to try to abstain and to get news and info the old fashioned way

Having willpower is a good thing,

The internet is a wonderous place but we must make sure we dont shelter ourselves from the outside world.

Watched some movies yesterday and did some excercising. Also went to the market and got some fresh veggies for next cooking effort. Never did purchase any new home decor, I am decorating inept. I can cook but have no sense of style in putting a room together, i am pretty traditional

Hopefully this weekend can cheer me up, maybe its all the rain we have been having and how slow things are at work right now. I am kind of down and mind spinning. Need to get back to thinking positive

Another cause could be lack of exercise . I havent exercised at all since the pool closed and Ive always heard exercising releases adreniline and other things which give you a more confident feeling. Also I didnt get much sleep last night woke up a couple of times in the middle of the night I HATE THAT

ok, ive whined enough,

I have only been given what i fear is a taste, and yet my mind is racing and my heart is anxious. Not sure if my weak heart and will are up to the challenge of any or all of these ladies. But yet, I am strangely drawn and intrigued... still and more and more. the horns of a dilemma.

Had a nice day today, most of day was able to be spent out of the office but enough of work related stuff to justify it. Its great to not be stuck behind a desk all the time and have mind wandering to random thoughts


Hope to be able to exercise tonight and then maybe a movie . I want a nice cooked meal but have no energy after that Sonic shake on the way back to the office

Maybe ill hit up some more home decor stores to add some more homey touches to my place


Have a great day all

I am basically a captive inside today due to the remants of Hanna. It just wont stop raining...!!!!!! Stuck and trapped inside with just the tube and food I guess. I feel so trapped .. Maybe I'll make myself a nice veal marsala and a salad for dinner and pop in a flick.

Supposed to be nice tommorrow so I can go to farmers market or the park to exercise then. I have been making good progress exercising and dont want to stop just because swimming season is over. I need like a medicine ball or something to help work my abs and maybe ill go look for one of those tommorrow